♥ A MOMENT LIKE THIS ♥

变质

2012-01-25T02:20:00.001+08:00

食物放久了
会臭酸

东西放久了
会坏去

就连感情久了
也会开始变质了

当不再有人为你的一句话赴汤蹈火
当不再有人为你而牺牲
当他已不再围绕着你公转

显然
这段感情已经变质了

臭了的食物
始终不能吃进肚子

断了的弦
始终不能弹琴

变质了的感情
始终会伤害那颗脆弱的心

《一百分的吻》2

2012-01-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

让人伤心
不是因为爱情结束了
而是因为当一切都结束了
爱还在

你
有过这样的经历吗？

《一百分的吻》 1

2012-01-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

一百分的吻
对你而言
又会是怎样的呢？

也许
不是每个男人都一样
但
大多数
都会发生同样的状况（劈腿）

故事里男主角的女朋友
把角色演绎得太善良
这个世界上
不会有任何一个女生
会对另一个在男友身旁的女生
那么客气

这故事
勾起了不堪回首的过去
我要是有elva那区区1%的潇洒
也许我会好过一些些

撇开伤心
剩下愉快的回忆

每一段恋情的开始
都有那么一次难以忘怀的初吻
你
还记得你跟深爱的她的初吻吗？

The One That Got Away

2012-01-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

All this money can't buy me a time machine
It can't replace you with a million rings
I shoulda told you what you meant to me
'Cause now I paid the price

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

Katy Perry : In another life, I would be your girl.
柯腾：也许，在另一个平星空里，我们是在一起的。

原来
无论在东方还是西方国家
男生还是女生
大家都会有同样的想法

所有现实中不能在一起的男女
会在另一个世界
过着幸福的生活

愿天下有情人终成眷属 :)

hello my name is 小花

2012-01-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

发花痴
:D

无法自拔的爱好
谁人让我掉下这陷阱？

迎春花呀
处处开呀
幸呀幸福来

幸福来呀幸福来呀
大地放光彩~

2012-01-15T19:54:00.001+08:00

Sorry that I choose to leave before I get hurt
I couldn't take it anymore

Wish you were here

2012-01-15T16:33:00.001+08:00

I can be tough
I can be strong
But there are sometimes I couldn't hide myself

I'm not that strong
I'm not that tough
I've been tried so hard to act like
I'm okay, I'm fine

But the truth is
I couldn't...
I'm not anyone else
I'm myself
I can't forget things which I've always remember
I can't be strong cause I'm weak

太多的事情来得太快
我还来不及反应
走得太快
我又跟不上脚步

我不是脆弱
只是没那么勇敢

需要他人帮忙时
全都鸡飞狗走
一个也没留下来

该对这个世界感到失望
还是该对自己感到失望
因为此刻
我还是得一个人面对一切

Review

2011-12-31T13:14:00.001+08:00

In the last day of 2011
I'm going to say goodbye to everything in the past
Recall back what I've done
Recall back what happened

Since the first day of the year
Things wasn't gone that well

One slap on my face
Is not enough
And that few slaps
Had finally woke me up from the nightmares

I've been staying too long in the darkness
And there is one man bring me back to life
Who woke me up from the coldness night
Who gave me the strength to find myself back

Too many tears drop for the past relationship
Even after the broke up
The ex asked me : 很久没有看到你笑了，可以笑一个吗？
And I fake a smile to him everytime when he said that

In fact
It was such a long time I never smile
Which I mean the smile that truly comes from the bottom of my heart

And then this person came to me, unexpectedly
Which we both never expect this thing to be happened

Just like the rewind for the past
He treated me well
Even better than anyone
Unfortunately
I hurt this man, again

人類都是犯賤的
對你好的，偏不珍惜
對你不好的，你偏要闖
到最後搞到自己遍體鱗傷
作賤自己

He never gave up
And tried to do everything to get me back
I asked myself
Why I choose to hurt by others instead of be with someone treat me truly, sincerely with all of his heart

Plenty of chances had given to the ex
Either there is no fate between us so he doesn't saw that or he choose to walk away
Idk

The only thing I know is that
I have the best one with me now

I'm sorry for not appreciating you at first
I'm sorry for letting go at first
Sorry that I hurt you
But I'm thankful that I found you

Wish my 2012 will be a better year with a great start!
:)

marry you

2011-12-31T01:24:00.002+08:00

simple.
but nice one.

when's my turn..?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

stop complicate things !!
简简单单也是另一种美

it's a beautiful night,
we're looking for something dumb to do,
hey baby,
i think i wanna marry you :)

我•最親愛的

2011-12-28T15:41:00.002+08:00

很想知道你近况　
我听人说还不如你对我讲　
经过那段遗憾　
请你放心　我变得更加坚强　
世界不管怎样荒凉　
爱过你就不怕孤单　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像过去一样　

我想你一定喜欢　
现在的我学会了你最爱的开朗　
想起你的模样　
有什么错　还不能够被原谅　
世界不管怎样荒凉　
爱过你就不怕孤单　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像朋友一样　

虽然离开了你的时间　
比一起还漫长　
我们总能补偿　
因为中间空白的时光　
如果还能分享　也是一种浪漫　
关系虽然不再一样　
关心却怎么能说断就断　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像亲人一样　

我最亲爱的　你过的怎么样　
没我的日子　你别来无恙　
依然亲爱的　我没让你失望　
让我亲一亲　像过去一样

wo.zui.qin.ai.de,
ni....
hao.ma..?

2011-12-27T05:37:00.001+08:00

Hello peeps imma back in action again

Stay tune for the next updates :)

I gotta finish my god damn assignment before I proceed to the birthday and Christmas post
:(

2011-12-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

當你漸漸對他失去耐性
其实
你已經沒那麼愛他了

Problems occur to every single relationship
Non of us can run away from that

当一个男人告诉你：我跟你性格根本不合
其实，他只是找个既能让自己好下台，而你也不会那么难受的烂借口

想想当初
是谁在那里使劲浑身解数都要把你追到手
是谁无论是白天还是夜晚天天都对你嘘寒问暖
是谁因为在众多的竞争者里脱颖而出而兴奋了整个晚上

But what's now?
Where this people went to?

是他忘了当初他为了谁而那么拼命
还是他已不再是从前的他
已不是你当初认识的那个他

Or
There is someone worth for him to do all these things
But it's somebody else now

To me
Love is like growing roses
Watering, fertilising, spacing
一个都不能少

BUT
It doesn't mean that the more you sacrifice, the more you get
Sometimes, it works the other way round

难道你忘了
玫瑰之所以长得美丽，是因为它身上长满刺，而你却能拥有它吗？

People are still fighting for their rose
Though it's hurt, sometime...

Dear Ex

2011-12-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

Haha, nice one
:)

Jet lag

2011-12-04T03:58:00.001+08:00

Yea
It's going to 4 in the morning
AGAIN
And I'm still awake
AGAIN

Why?
Idk
I just can't fall asleep even I'm really really tired

I think I'm going to sick
I sneeze like 20+ times
Or is there anyone out there missing me? HAHHAHAHAHA

Eh tolong la
Miss me then just come and tell me la
But not making me date with mr insomnia ma

Finished my first midterm paper yesterday
after such a long period
when I could barely remember what is 'EXAM', 'EXAM HALL' and 'FINAL'
And finally met with this guy, which i have never seen him like ages

I'm finally back to my campus life
Passing my day with classes (which I usually choose to skip morning class), assignments, midterm, and again, FYP

Oh yea speaking about midterm
It reminds me there is another paper on 16december

WHAT A LIFE !!

Christine (the lecturer), don't you know what day is that day?!! How dare you do this to me !!

凌晨的剖白

2011-12-03T05:06:00.000+08:00

我最近约会了
跟mr 失眠约会了好几天
不错哦
可喜可贺
！！

不是难以入睡
就是辗转难眠
现在来个失眠

搞什么嘛

mr 失眠驾着emo牌的跑车
来到家门前
不赴约好像很不好意思喔

刚看完gossip girl season 5 episode 9
为何那故事好像写进心底去
像个人剖白
把所有的事情都给挖出来
哪怕是那些你一直不愿去承认的事实
还是一些你不想提起的过去

他对她不闻不问
却在暗地里渐渐变成了她梦想的男人
而她，
累了，不等了
要嫁人了

却在这时候
发觉了他的好
她逃避了
原以为选了最好的
却欺骗不了自己
深爱的那个他
依然存在着

经典名句：
I've finally became the man she want
and she's already chosen another one
i'm too late

You still love her?
I can't imagine the day i won't.

此话一出
心里总有那么一些些感动

Ugly Fiction, 4am

2011-12-03T04:28:00.001+08:00

I think I'm ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don't lie to my face
Tellin' me I'm pretty

Cause I know I'm ugly.... ♪

It's a song for girls who think that they are ugly
Aww,
How sad would that be..
Anyway it's 4 in the morning now, and I'm lying on my bed, writing this post

The song playing in my playlist now, 'fiction'
I have no idea what these young Korean singing, but I do fall in love with this song since the first time I heard it

Ireohke nan ddo (Fiction in fiction~~)

Fiction
What if everything is just a fiction?
If it is,
I wish I could write it in a better way :)

Oops, December again

2011-12-02T17:58:00.005+08:00

Its december again
My last December was so fucked up
Specially referring to the fucking bitch who ruined everything
You know who you are, don't you?

Everything going to be different for this December
So
Get out of my life bitch !

Attended sis's wedding last month
Am so happy she married to someone who truly treats her well
Someone who pamper her
Someone who appreciate her

P/s: received the parcel from his mom, it was a wedding gift for my sis! Aww... Thanks lot auntie! And I do appreciate the special relationship between me n her <3

our little mei mei

wish nothing but happiness to both of you :)

my pretty sis and me <3

2011-11-27T01:53:00.002+08:00

i should have know all the consequences
no one win this game
we both are loser

i thought that i can let go
but seems like i'm the one hurting myself after all

it had been one year
and no matter how hard i acted infront everyone
no matter how many different masks i put on my face
still
the pain is so near, so real

in the last phone call
i was trying to show how much i appreciate things between us
but
end up with you throwing your tantrum to me
another again

i'm sorry for not holding back my words
i'm sorry for not waiting longer at the crossroad
i'm sorry for treating you like property
and i'm sorry that
i didn't tell you i loved you when i knew i did
but most of all, i'm sorry
that i gave up on us when you never did

2011-11-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

試問吓，又有幾多個男人可以做得到？

2011-11-22T23:57:00.001+08:00

First time experience at overtime in Melaka
And suddenly there is free 1 barrel and 1 jar of starker

Hello uncle I don't know you le. And that uncle lansi us lagi.

Anyway,
Thanks uncle !!
Not forgotten happy birthday to lovely Jess !!

P/s: this is the first time I went overtime with someone who ordered mango juice!! ;D

2011-11-20T01:42:00.001+08:00

Damn damn damn
What I'd do to have you here here here
I wish you were here

Damn damn damn
What I'd do to have you near near near
I wish u were here

Superwoman

2011-11-16T01:24:00.001+08:00

somehow i think she got the point

i'm not your superwoman
never be.

p/s : i love her voice :)

那些年

2011-11-09T01:41:00.001+08:00

只要夠喜歡
沒有辦不到的等待
就可以靠信仰愛情
一直堅持下去

有股沖動想看多一次

2011-11-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

再说，也没有用
再多，也不会够
盼望只是一个梦
清醒只会更头痛
再说，你本来就
迟早，会离开我
还有一点点时间
可以看你的脸孔
趁现在我还来不及难过的时候
你离去的背影
看着花瓣
慢慢的流走

请让我维持我仅存的温柔
目送你离开了我
收拾自己
整理这一切的来龙去脉

答应我你离开以后
别记得曾经有过
一丝丝可能
存在我们之间
发生过，那个结果

再说，你本来就
迟早，会离开我
还有一点点时间
可以看你的脸孔
趁现在我还来不及难过的时候
你离去的背影
我歪着头，多美的镜头

请让我维持我仅存的温柔
目送你离开了我
收拾这个家，曾经有个你存在过
答应我你离开以后
想起的那一个我
只是一开始
还嘻皮笑脸很爱说冷笑话
的那一个我

答应我你离开以后
别记得曾经有过
收拾自己
整理这一切的来龙去脉
答应我你离开以後
别记得曾经有过
一丝丝可能
存在我们之间发生过那个结果

KARMA

2011-11-03T07:52:00.001+08:00

What goes around comes around

You step on me today, eventually someone meant to you will step on u someday in the future

You may blame me for holding too tight for the past 10 months,
but you should start to worry when I treat you as don't-give-a-shit-friend

You might think you are the winner for today
Who knows someday in the future things might change?
Everyone knows when the game started,
But no one knows when it ends.

I'm really thankful to everyone who hurt me, stab on my back, or do anything behind me

I'll just wait and see
Perhaps you wouldn't 'die' in a hard way
I pray for you guys

I do believe in karma,
Do you?
:) *evil smile*

Lee Hom

2011-10-31T20:51:00.001+08:00

Lee Hom's concert confirm falls on 3rd march 2012 !

Do you know that VVIP's ticket costs 800bucks? What the ……

一年前的今天，我還站在他身邊，他陪着我去看力宏，說下次要一起去看他的演唱會
一年後的三月三日，人事已非，但我仍然決定去看這場演唱會

力宏，我來了！

2011-10-28T17:28:00.001+08:00

In LCCT now
Can't wait for my lovely weekend !
:)

p/s: I saw someone looks like her, and she keep staring at me too, I wonder why? LOL

Over you, mr X

2011-10-28T06:47:00.001+08:00

Texts and calls
Why are you still haunting me?
I'm sorry I gotta be cruel

Where was you when I need you the most?
You left me cold there

I seriously doubt it
When you're the one begging " baby please don't go "
And holding someone else at the same time

I wish I could forget those nightmare
Do you know that kind of feeling?
During the first 2 weeks
I locked myself from all the outsider
End up with crying on my bed every morning

It's been 10 months plus since the broke up
I should have left earlier than I thought

For the first 5 months
I've been trying to changed myself
Just to get back your attention
But now I know
No matter how hard I try
I'm still not the one meant for you

Do you realise when I was standing right beside you?
I drove all the way from my house to your house alone
Not only once or twice
But everytime when I wanted to see you

What did I get?
Phobia for me on my birthday?
Cause I knew what you've done for her on her birthday?
Compared to what you've done to me one day before my birthday?

I should be thankful
To found out everything earlier
To drag myself out from the darkness you brought me to
Before I fall deeper

I never thought I doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you know

I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better

And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I though I'd never get through
I got over you

:)

2011-10-27T16:30:00.001+08:00

2011-10-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

Do you know the last time I felt joy?
He had brought me into his darkness for so long...
I'd forgotten what that felt like.

Somehow I felt like I'm B.

Yea.
I'm watching Gossip Girl now and I know i was kinda outdated.
It's season 4 episode 20.

The last part,
Was still turning in my mind.
I wished you'll watch that and figure out the mistake you made.

2011-10-23T00:17:00.001+08:00

冰冷的夜
懶洋洋地躺在沙發上

眼睛沒法專心地看著電視節目
只因那該死的痛
弄得我痛不欲生
怎一個"痛"字了得

我需要一雙溫暖的手
敷在我肚皮上
我需要一雙溫暖的手
把我緊緊的抱著

又冷又痛啊
該死的冰巧克力

臉上的豆豆多得不像話
站在鏡子前
我也快認不出自己

天啊
這張鬼臉怎麼見人？

我還要看那些年我們一起追的女孩
我還要看Justin Timberlake
我還要吃螃蟹
我還要吃snowflake
還有好多好多的事要做

Dear Lord,
讓我星期五前趕快好起來吧，
我可不要吓跑大家咧
Amen

2011-10-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

痛，痛，痛
除了痛，還是痛！

2011-10-21T22:16:00.001+08:00

就在最近這幾天　我總是發呆老半天
盤旋在腦海中不去的是
你的話語和難忘的笑臉

就在最近這幾天　
離開學校的日子很空閑
我總是有時沒事就溫習過去
還有重看我們的照片

飛呀　時間為何那麼快的不見
一起歡笑一起流淚的日子
將這幾年點綴成美麗的畫面

飛呀　我請月光灑在我的身邊
我將學習如何去思念
我將熬夜回味這幾年日記每一面

我曾經　為你熬夜
只為了做你的生日卡片
一起熬夜　一起准備明天的測驗
過了今天　也許只能說再見
能不能再次陪我熬夜聊天

為你熬夜　幫你錄下你最愛的影片
一起熬夜　一起在网上廢話連篇
過了很多天　我們熬過多少夜
就讓我唱這一首歌　請陪我熬夜到明天

2011-10-21T19:13:00.001+08:00

他說得對：
他何必為了她欺騙我？因為根本不值得

有些人，不值得繼續相信，不值得繼續浪費時間，更不值得你愛。

曾經，某個他為了某個她，欺騙我，現在，我只想告訴他：

你的好玩，總有一天會讓你後悔。

He will never be the one deserve my tears.

Hey bitch !

2011-10-13T20:54:00.001+08:00

A relationship is only made for two,
But some bitches don't know how to count

HAHAHAHA
小妹，
沒錯，
女皇說的就是你！

2011-10-13T20:44:00.001+08:00

你想我嗎？
會偶爾想我嗎？
是這樣嗎？
飛揚的會落下
你愛我嗎？
如果誠實回答

2011-10-12T22:40:00.001+08:00

不要在東西發生以後才來想辦法祢补，
因為傷害已經造成了。

2011-09-30T14:11:00.002+08:00

this will be the last week for me to stay here

probably after this i won't come back here that often anymore

there is no reason for me to wait for someone which is not worth

when i found out everything

the promises, all just gone like that

*pooooof*

纸是包不住火的

and i know

the same things are going to happen again and again

tones of lies

those humiliating words from the bitch

thanks to her, i'll remember everything

if you really care for me

why you let this thing happen?

so can i take it as, you don't care my feeling at all?

you can't let go her

i can't let go your lies

so we should end everything

and now

i'm going to start my new life

with the new one

LONELY

2011-09-15T18:01:00.003+08:00

the words i'm saying right now, i don't know if they'll hurt you

they'll probably make you hate me forever

you, saying that i'm not the same as i used to be, is not completely untrue

this changed me is a stranger to myself as well

you are so kind but

that's the way you are but

i don't know i don't know

why i am like this

we were so in love, and you're here now but

i don't know

i want to find myself now

baby i'm sorry, even when i'm with you, i'm lonely

i must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person i am

i'm sorry, this is your's and my story

i must not be worthy of this thing called "love", eventhough i'm by your side

baby i'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

you didn't do anything wrong, i'm the strange one

it seems i've already been prepared long ago, for our breakup

i really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when i'm confronted by love

i am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly

cause i'm just another girl

this night is lonely

i can't take anymore, goodbye

cause i'm just another girl

i'm so lonely

eventhough i'm by your side right now

2011-09-15T17:59:00.002+08:00

there is someone who told me this :

find someone who loves you more than you love him

现在我很幸福

2011-09-08T17:59:00.003+08:00

他的手掌有种粗糙的体贴

他在我需要时候出现身边

被你上的那些崩溃眼泪

多亏他无私的奉陪

哪天要时和你真的再见面

谁都不要提醒那一段从前

有些事不面对反而安心安全

你无权再动摇我的世界

现在我有了幸福有人照顾应该知足

你不像他从不让我哭

可是我越想投入越是生疏抱得再紧

依旧止不住那流失的温度

现在我不停忙碌不断让步想看清楚

你不像他把我当成全部

可是爱有时善良有时残酷

我要如何爱他像爱你那样义无反顾

哪天要是和你真的再见面

我不会提到最后和他的一切

面对不爱的人我终于谅解了

曾经你用无言画的句点

2011-09-07T18:40:00.004+08:00

我不想当笨蛋

2011-09-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

我也是人类

也是有血有肉的

逞强久了

累了

倒了

想找个肩膀靠一靠

行吗

对的时间

雪中送炭的人

谢谢你

2011-09-06T09:54:00.004+08:00

honestly
i really like this family

especially mommy
who always treating me like her own daughter
she advised me lots
no matter in studies, working stuff, or relationships

daddy is a strict character in this family

but still he shows his concern to me whenever he saw me

didi is really polite and cute

i still remember the first time i went the house he called me "robecca jie jie"

mei mei is the one consoling me from the first time hurt

she said the family was so angry after they knew it

everyone is treating me nice in this family
but why
there is someone doing something else there?

sometimes i wonder
izzit people choose to enjoy for the short-term happiness
and give up for the long-term relationship?

why
until now still i cant see anythings u can do for me?

why

until now still i cant see things are clear between u and others?
and why
until now u are still hurting me?

ENOUGH!
everything has the limit
you crossed my line since the first lie
and now

i wouldn't be so naive to believe everything again and again

you cares your reputation more than my feeling

did you notice that??

now

i will just ignore you, your texts, your calls,

just like how you ignore my feeling since 15 december 2010

"don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not,
and baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught"

p/s: such a nice necklace. i told you before, think which path to take, since the necklace is the first thing comes to your mind, appreciate her then.

2011-09-05T21:48:00.002+08:00

things wasn't going so well since few days ago

and i know it's my time to decide whether to or not to

no matter how much i 舍不得

still there are something i gotta let go

"don't hold too tight, and everything will be alright"

that's what i told myself

BANGKOK !!

2011-09-05T14:51:00.003+08:00

aww~

i wanna go bangkok to shop shop and shop !!!

should i get this for myself?

who said i can't go alone?

law didn't mentioned bout that.

eww.

2011-09-05T12:55:00.004+08:00

看来

所有的努力

是白费的

这么近

那么远

一次又一次的

失望，失败

一个人

我可以过得好好的

我可以自己一个人去看电影

我可以自己一个人去旅行

我可以自己一个人去海边

我可以自己一个人

去完成说过的承诺

去说过的地方

做说过的梦想

一个人

没什么不好的

2011-09-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

too much chances given for those lies
i can't even find myself any reason to continue and believe all these

the last chance was just wasted like that
really surprise with how i ended this
quietly
peacefully
everything's so fine here

what i wanna do is runaway
and scream out loud

莫文蔚 - 他不愛我

2011-08-28T19:26:00.002+08:00

他不愛我牽手的時候太冷清擁抱的時候不夠靠近

他不愛我說話的時候不認真沈默的時候又太用心

我知道他不愛我他的眼神說出他的心

我看透了他的心還有別人逗留的背影

他的回憶清除得不夠乾淨

我看到了他的心演的全是他和她的電影

他不愛我儘管如此他還是贏走了我的心

******************************************

past is a past
but when a past is still haunting the new life
it's not just a past

他的回憶清除得不夠乾淨
我看到了他的心演的全是他和她的電影

唱到心底最深处去
anyone up to sing k?
i'm ready now :)

2011-08-24T11:04:00.004+08:00

昨晚跟前度看了"人约离婚后"

这部戏

还真的蛮有意思的

跟方力申的前几部类似

看了很有感觉

很经典的一句:

女人

第一次爱上一个混蛋

是犯错

女人

第二次爱上一个混蛋

是犯贱

我犯错过

也犯贱过

你呢？

2011-08-21T15:05:00.003+08:00

no more looking back to the past
this is the turning point

stay or leave
you decide

but
the more disappointment you gave
further i went
;)

2011-08-15T14:56:00.005+08:00

hello peeps

my long-time-no-see blog

i'm back

my lovely laptop broke down few weeks ago

forgive me for the MIA

lotsa things happened during the past one month

and now i can see what kind of person are them for those who wearing their mask all the time.

people lying

people humiliating

all you got to do is wait and see

don't you think that you can just let it go that easy

cause you have to know

once you stabbed on my back

once you crossed my line

once you lied

once you tried to humiliate

once you tried to take away MY belongings

you gonna pay for everything

yea i mean everything.

to both of you:

don't blame me for losing anything after this,

cause you two are the main cause for this.

this is me

ROBECCA LAM.

hate me?

just click on the "X" button and close this window.

agree with me?

stay tune for the coming story.

2011-07-16T19:32:00.002+08:00

today
hari ini
今天
gam yat

now
sekarang
现在
yin zoi

i should be sitting inside the stadium waiting for the match
not selling the tickets to others
:(

i bought two tickets for liverpool asia tour 2011 last week
and
guess what
i came back to my home by yesterday
and the first guy i met once i got back

not liverpool fans
not liverpool players
not anyone else
is the doctor
=.=

people always expect something to happen
while things always happened out of expectation

so why are we still expect something good to happen?

为什么我看不见你脸上有任何一点失望？

因为
只有弱者才会感到失望

我
不要做弱者

一切让我失望的
都给我滚远远去吧

2011-07-16T15:25:00.002+08:00

i found something interesting today
all you need to do is take just few minutes to finish this story

有一天，我和妻逛街，妻问我：“你爱我吗？”
我愕然，说：“当然，你怎么啦？有什么问题吗？”

妻笑了，仔细地望着我，
说：“没什么，那你去为我买件内衣，10分钟后，我在楼下咖啡厅等你..”

我在那家大商场好不容易找到了女性内衣专柜，这个内衣专柜很漂亮，就像是一个迷宫，我转了一圈，快要迷路了。

“先生，你.. ..” 营业员小姐叫住我，
“先生”这个称谓吸引了那里所有顾客的注意，因为那里只有我一个人是男的。

我说我买东西，营业员小姐惊讶地问：“你买什么？”
我心想，这女孩子脑袋是不是进水了？
难道我到这里来是买西红柿的吗？
我一字一字地大声回答说：“买.. 内.. 衣..” @_@

营业员小姐更是大吃一惊，旋即说：“先生，对不起，这里只卖女式的。”
我无奈地说：“我知道，我到这里来，就是想给我老婆买内衣，难道不可以吗？”

营业员小姐这才笑了，店内的所有女顾客都笑了。
我隐约听到一个悦耳的女声在说：“这男的不错嘛”！
我当然不错啦，有人夸我，我很高兴，勇气大增。
用手指一件暗红色的内衣，理直气壮地说：“就买一件这样的。”

营业员小姐看了我一眼，问：“要多大的？”

多大？完了，怎么忘记问妻了呢。我当场愣住，不知所措。
买外套的时候，可以对服务员说“估计你能穿的，她就能穿”，
但现在是买胸罩，我能说什么呢？
这是永远也没有办法请人帮忙的事情.. =(

营业员小姐不停地发问：“28A？28B？30A？30B？”
她说了一大堆我从来没有听说过的数字，我一头雾水.. >_<

营业员小姐似乎明白了，她问：“有地瓜那么大吗？”
终于有我能够听懂的词语了。我摇摇头说：“小一点。”
营业员小姐又问：“要不就是苹果？” 我一听，还是摇头，
营业员小姐泄气地说：“那就是鸡蛋哦！”
我笑了，心想这女孩子真聪明，很会说话，连忙点头认可。

营业员小姐正准备去拿内衣，我忽然想起妻是属于 “飞机场” 类型的，
连忙补充一句说：“小姐，是煎过的。”
营业员小姐以为我骂她，反问我：“什么煎过的？”
我急忙解释说：“你刚才不是说鸡蛋吗？”
营业员小姐一脸的悲伤，
叹气说：“唉，这么平，难怪要让你来买呢！” #_#

我拿了选好的内衣落荒而逃。
刚出门，就看到妻站在不远处，开心地笑，她越笑，我就越觉得很尴尬..

一辈子，惟一一次为女人买内衣，虽然不是妻真正想要的那种伪装型的，
不过我倒因此长了不少见识，至少我现在知道“28A”之类的数字含义，
并且知道了妻子的型号..

我相信，大多数男人里面，估计没有几个为女人买过内衣的..

男人都说自己很爱自己的女人，可是有几个为自己的女人买过内衣呢..？
我现在常常这样想..

男人真正了解女人有多少呢？
珍惜与苛护不是只用说的哦..

其实女人在意的不是那个东西，
而是男人的那颗真心..
男人，难道你们不懂吗？^_^

this is so true
can you do this?
are you dare to complete the task?
can you get full mark for this?
HAHAHAHAHAHA

2011-07-16T01:11:00.008+08:00

welcome back my friend from taiwan :)
went to watch Transformers 3 in 3-D
with my babe

the hall is really big
i had never seen that theater with 40 seats in one row
like sitting inside orchestra theater
okay la maybe i'm sua ku loh

actually i had watched the movie like 2 weeks ago
to be honest
i think i slept for 1+hour during the show
paid for 20bucks to sit inside there and sleep
LOL

为什么我想看的戏，偏偏就没人要看
我看过了的戏，偏偏就被拉去看

MC today
non-stop coughing since last week
idk what's going on
because of the serious haze around my office area?
maybe
since i saw quite a number of people wearing mask there
like 蒙面超人
should i get myself one too?
tapi i mau cute cute mia boleh tak?

bought 2 iphone cover yesterday
black and white
actually i should have change my phone first
but i just dont know why
i bought the cover first instead of buying the new phone
some more打孖上
一买就买两个
你以为情侣cover?
LOL
不要笑死人
谁要跟我情侣

人就是很奇怪的动物
要买的东西，就是买不到
没有intention要买的东西，偏偏就买到

my intention is to buy myself new shoes
but then i back to my room with the new cover and new dress
why ar?
is this the nature of girls?

i can only give myself a break and shop around during weekend
i always craving for going somewhere to shop
but then i just can't find a suitable time for myself
i thought i can go for a walk last week
who knows bout the 709 thingy
i stucked in my room for the whole day
then for the next coming 3 weeks i gonna be onsite for the fair
work from monday til sunday continuously for 3 weeks
the week after that might be joining them too

OH GOD
it's gonna be a tough month for me
只希望我不会倒下去
when only i can slow down everything and have a good rest?
and do the things i wanna do
like
shopping
watching movies
lying on my bed for the whole day
醒来就有饭吃，吃饱又睡下去
多么幸福的日子啊

p/s:
when only i can watch these movies?
i just need some entertainment for myself when i stay alone

孤岛惊魂
财神客栈
Larry Crowne

anyone on?

2011-07-14T16:40:00.005+08:00

i just don't know why

why people doesn't appreciate when you have it now

and you'll only tried very hard to get it when it's over

i just don't know why

why people can changed easily

you were yes then you are no, you were in then you are out

i just don't know why

why people always confused between two

and you'll go for the replacement if you got rejected from the first one

what do you want actually?

i bet that you, yourself cant even find out the answer

the only thing you can do is avoid when somebody asked

the only thing you can do is throw your tantrum once you get confused

why are you treating people around you in that way?

because you're so scared to make the choices

you're scared if you make the wrong decision

you're scared to said : i'm regret

why don't you just slow down and think

what are the thing which you can't even imagine when it never appears in your life anymore?

who are the one in your mind at this moment?

who are the one you really trust?

which fact you choose to believe in?

which is the happy ending you always wish to have?

take your time and think

my only advise is that

time never wait for anyone :)

2011-07-11T22:42:00.002+08:00

11.july

it was a brand new day for me
i moved to my dear manchu's house
and i start to continue my life without depend on others

i gotta be late for everyday from today onwards
cause there is no one fetching me to work anymore
and there is no reason for me to wake up early just to prepare breakfast anymore
should i be happy for this? i can sleep longer but you got no 口福 anymore. haha

i have to work OT everyday
to avoid the jam
to wait for the chance to get into the public transport
and also take my dinner at office area before i got back to room

i reached home quite early today
around 10pm?
cause it's the first day
and he came to pick me up at the station
giving me the reason : it's dangerous to take cab during night time !!

but...
how bout for the coming 2 month plus?
i will be reaching the station around 9+pm everyday
still i have to go back home by myself tomorrow, the day after tomorrow......

that's why i gave him a text
asked him not to do this anymore

纠缠下去，会宠坏了我你知道吗
最后苦的是我啊

anyway

to him:
thanks for the breakfast
thanks for the car ride
thanks for the concern
thanks for everything

to令堂
thanks for the call just now
thanks for the pocket money (for sure i will use it to buy something for you,礼尚往来 =P)
not forgotten
thanks mommy for the souvenir from shanghai !!
i was so surprise to receive it, it's really nice !!
<3

2011-07-11T16:04:00.002+08:00

okay

so this is what you want

actually you already made up your mind

i wonder is there anything hiding behind all of these

but

there is no reason for me to find out anything anymore

anyway

i'll accept it

and just walk away

goodbye lullaby
=)

离.开

2011-07-09T16:07:00.002+08:00

离你远去的人，是他失去了你，不是你失去了他。
他离开了，朝着追寻自己另一段幸福的路走去。
你离开了，朝着原点寻回遇见他以前的自己。

但，
记忆中，那感觉好像不曾离开。
只是，残忍的事实把你从梦中摇醒了。

你离开了，也带走了我的幸福。
我离开了，却送你另一段幸福。

生命，总是注定太多的离开。
你离开我，我离开你
她离开你，他离开我

而到最后
我自私地做了残忍的决定
选择离开

谁也不曾为谁停留
谁也不曾为谁出现

心想
也许，离开，也许是为下个路口更好的重逢？
从前
我们，都舍不得给彼此留下不可能

现在
我只觉得自己真的太可笑
选择相信一切
信到最后给自己捅了一刀

对自己残忍
你我都配合

说了再见
是不是再也见不到

今后我们约定
要是重逢了，绝不再离开，
好不好？
我好想把话说出口
可是............
我找不到理由

2011-07-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

努力有啥用
还不是扑了场空

只要你喜欢
钱根本就不是问题

问题是
多少次失望代表着多少次期盼

花了点钱
book这个book那个
还好昨晚去changkat迟回来
不然我今早差点就去排队
那应该也变成另一种浪费

从报章上看到
还特地去翻，特地剪下来
还以为看到的那一刻会很开心

你知道吗
只要你开心
牺牲睡眠，牺牲时间
算得了什么

一句你想看
就立刻去订
结果怎样
剩我自己去看
还是让那个位子空着

我做这些
并没有期待任何回报
只是凭自己的感觉做自己想做的
一向来都是我的作风

可是我换来什么
看不到你的开心
只感受到你的无情

为什么
有没有人可以告诉我哪里出错了

2011-07-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

那不是爱
只是一种妒忌的心态

Say Hello To Goodbye

2011-07-05T23:57:00.004+08:00

I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go

Say hello to goodbye, cause it's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then

刚刚
两颗泪就在晚餐时间划过脸颊
你看不见那些眼泪
你只以为我很累

渐渐地
冷漠占据了我们所在的空间

昨晚
很感动的
在我一回到家
就看到他在厨房准备晚餐

试想象
工作了一整天
有个男人在家为你下厨煮饭
什么累意全都不见去

今天
虽然晚餐大家都不说话
可是我点了份鸡扒
他依旧像从前那样为我切好方便我吃

从小到大
这些我从不需要做
就连一份roti canai
我妈都会为我切好

就是因为这样
一直到上大学
全部东西开始要自己来
才慢慢地学

我告诉他
不要把我宠坏了
我已经要搬出去了

他只是笑了笑
继续为我把它们切块

我其实不是很累
只是真的很难过

可是
我越来越懦弱
什么都不想说了

这几天经历的
真的不是普通人简单就能撑过的

你们永远都不知道
对着一个嚣张的对象说话
你真的会感觉自己很卑微

当然
我不是在说他

只是
一个不断地在我生活中打击我的信心
一个不断地干扰我的生活
一个阴魂不散的人

2011-07-04T00:59:00.001+08:00

失望
还是
绝望

只是一线之差

2011-07-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay
please just come in front of me
and laugh out loud

it's all just a past
i don't even know what's in my heart
but then it just end in this way

说我侵犯私人权
那是谁侵犯我的自由
?

不管怎样
那会是最后一次了

he was right
i chose this way myself

是天意吗
最关键地时刻
真相大白

you'll never know
how sweet we can be

you'll never know
how happy we can be

you'll never know
i'm really willing to change everything after the conversation with friends

you'll never know
that i will say yes

you really never know what will be happening
if i didn't picked up the phone call

anyway
i would like to say thanks to her
i was shocked that we end the phone call in peace

原来
我只是一个笨蛋
超级无敌大笨蛋

p/s： he's really a good guy, just that i'm not the one deserve all these.

2011-06-18T15:52:00.000+08:00

听说，你们相爱了。
听说，你们相处得很愉快。
听说，你对她很好。
听说，你对她很体贴。
听说，你对她很关心。

该欣慰，还是该怨恨，我不懂。
该欣慰吧，至少看到的他们是很开心的。
该怨恨吧，恨自己最终没能待在他身边。

她，很幸福吧。
我懂，
因为，那一段幸福，我也曾短暂地拥有过。

你，快乐吗？
也许吧。

在你快乐的同时
你忘了我躲在某个伤心地角落

你想要的
你不想要的
通通都给你了
我已经不知道还可以继续做些什么

以前的
现在的
围绕在你身边总是太多太多的女生
偏偏你就是给不了最重要的信任

你履行不了你的承诺
却一直紧咬着我不放
就只是因为我会呆在那里
但不代表你可以为所欲为

我是人
我也有感觉的

放过我
好吗

that should be me

2011-06-18T13:37:00.001+08:00

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me

你同我玩嘢？

2011-06-17T21:06:00.003+08:00

sorry
you really fail to build up the confidence
in order to gain back all those feeling
seriously

i really felt nothing here
it's so empty

unreachable phone calls
no reply from the messages

and what i get once you answer the call?
with the impatient tone
i'm the one stupid in trusting you again and again
giving you chance again and again

and now
i'm really tired for all the waiting
i dont know how long to wait
but i know
i lost my patient and you broke again the trust

2011-06-17T20:36:00.001+08:00

what the hell

2011-06-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

我没耐性
我等唔到

等乜?
我都唔知

the only thing i knew

有D嘢，唔系你话要等就会得到
等咗咁耐，又系得个桔！

2011-06-11T09:59:00.003+08:00

it's not only complicated
it's weird too

anyway
i was listening to the CD now
"all out of love"
is the favorite among them all

i read through again the card
and finally
i signed on my part

is it everything can back on track?
i dont know
but seriously
i didnt feel anything
the only thing i felt
insecure

nobody can save this
cause everything i saw
everything he done
nothing can make me to feel secure again

can you really do everything like how you wrote on the card?
can you really do everything like how you've promised me?
can you really sacrifice thing like how i had done before?

can you?
and fyi
you should know this is much more tougher than last time
you have to pay double for everything in order to get back everything that you lost
can you really do so without any complaint?

if yes, i'll be here.
if no, i'll be gone.

2011-06-08T22:52:00.002+08:00

像个什么
什么也不是
彼此迈入了冷淡的阶段

前几天放工后
同事们都回家去
我没有钥匙
站在路旁
等了一个小时

车子来了
一点歉疚也没有
还在那里使劲地踩油
好像我等也是应该的

对啊
谁叫我寄人篱下

今天
看着手表
我等了两个小时
这次好一点
老板还没走
还可以在office等

可是
结果还是一样
没有听到一声抱歉
我真的怀疑
是我个人的问题
还是
真的是我就是应该等

照我的本性
我是不可能就此罢休
奇迹似的
我选择了沉默

整辆车子
就只有沉默

还没关系
就为了配合你的时间
还要跟老板请半天的假
给我早点回家

是不是恨不得我立刻就消失
让你有充足的时间
做你自己想做的
约你想约的

就连我自己的私事都被操控
现在是怎样

回到家
用冲个凉一下子就溜出去了
知不知道
我就算住在这间家
每天看到你的时间
都不会超过四个小时

那你当初为什么死命地留着我
绑着我
却不顾一切
这样对大家都没有意思

我要搬
你不给
我留下
你天天往外跑

明明就是你有你的忙
我有我的自由
为什么你就是要这样绑着我的自由

多几天要庆祝爸爸的生日
还没开口
你就已经说你要去别人的婚礼
一早就告诉你我要回去庆祝生日
你一点反应也没有

对啊
是不应该有什么反应
是我自己做得太多了

可以回家的日子
你妈一通电话说要来
我想也不想就留下来

有时候
太过为别人着想
其实把自己逼得更累

你没发觉到吗
就算我真的受到委屈
我也选择忍气吞声
我知道
就算说出来也没有用
你给的不会是关心
只会是换来一场争吵

大家就这样安静的
越来越遥远了
我也累了
什么也不想了

2011-06-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

一走了之
是不是就能解决一切

不想留在这里
一个不属于我的地方

一句叫我回家
我就必须忍气吞声吗？

被锁着
所有的自由被捆绑着

剩下的
只有沉默的两个背影

累得
连话都不想说了

带我走
到遥远的以后

2011-06-06T23:03:00.001+08:00

我难过
还带着一些不舍

没关系
哭过就好了

2011-06-03T00:09:00.001+08:00

你不仁，我不义
你不忠，莫怪我

你选她，我无奈
只好选择离开

你选择，我奉陪到底
要怪，就怪自己

2011-06-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
THE BIGGEST JOKE OF THE YEAR!

dare not to accept the request and gave me those stupid excuses
while HER?
MISS MG?
straight away send her the request?
scare to lost the most precious girl in your world??

MISS MG
MISS K
MISS E
AND NOW MISS MG AGAIN
wtf

you know how much i hate her
still
you treat her more precious than everyone

and
you never dare to call her and scold her

call la
ask her come and make apology to me
for what she had done to me
call la if you dare !!

why?
scare?
心疼?
oh sorry har
i forgot that you always protect her

she's the best mar
i know
you miss her ma
i know
u always call her and talk to her ma
i know

while me?
who m i?
nobody
who always being control by you
ENOUGH ADY KAY !!
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ?!

sorry
you choose this
and im going to end it in the way which you can never expect
dont blame me.

2011-06-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

你无法为我做些什么
同样的
我再也不需要为你做些什么了

我不可以做的
你却可以

事情不应该是这样的

2011-05-31T13:26:00.001+08:00

前言不对后语你最行
原来全部都只是假的

要我怎样相信你
MG一个
现在又来K

你觉得
你说的话我还可以继续相信吗？

对不起
很难

2011-05-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

做一份intern都酱辛苦
真的是受够了

i'm not born to being threaten by you
i'm done with this!

you never think from my side when u doing all those thing
so pls don't ask me did i ever think of you when i'm doing this now

你我都没那份权利

5 months
had been waited for 5 months
who do you think you are
to want me back

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

你的所作所为
我忍下了那么多
你呢？

换来一句句伤人的字眼
which i don't deserve it

我没有矜持
我不自爱
我根本就不会保护自己

到了这种时候
你还是要说这些话

don't you know
those words doesn't help in building those thing u lost
but just pushing me further

first week intern

2011-05-25T22:35:00.004+08:00

okay
finally there is one night i came back early from work

well
it's a very tiring+boring job
woke up at 6 in the morning and go to shop 6.30am and 6.30pm everyday
working hours more than 10 hours per day
and
how can i continue this for my four months interns?
while the thing im doing right now
is not related to the field i studied
AT ALL!!

all i have to do here is just record the stock
and sit at there
texting and calling anyone i want to talk to
and be the cashier!!

for the first time
i ride on a bike for more than 10mins
fyi im not that kind of girl born to sit on a bike!!
it's not because i act like 千金 or 万金大小姐
i scared to ride on a motorbike actually
like so dangerous
zZzzzz

for the first time
i felt that kids are so irritating
the baby girl kept stick with me and keep calling me :jie jie jie jie jie jie X 100000 times
the mouth like 机关枪
non-stop talking
i answered her : zomok?
she still keep calling : jie jie jie jie jie jie X 1000000000 times
and her 杀手锏 is cry
once u dont let her to take something from you
she can cry immediately
with tears
but the point is im doing my job
writing my paper and suddenly she came and want to rampas
i said : jie jie need to note down the stock, guai, let jie jie write
she said : bu yao bu yao bu yao (硬硬来抢我的东西)
if i dont let, then she shout : mommy, you see jie jie dont let me to take the paper
then cry~ wa wa wa ~

真的是烦到.....
她妈妈都拿她没办法
btw. her name called 妮妮
and she's very pretty girl with big eyes and long eye lashes
like someone
xD

OMG
even myself also cant believe for what im doing now
okay
so there is two ways for me to solve my problem
1. go kl
2. back to segamat

which is better?
i dont know.

i have to call my friend and give him my answer by tomorrow.
anyone lead my way, pls?

p/s: there is one baby called yixiang in my working place. 妮妮's brother. cute ♥

2011-05-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

when i said take a break
it doesn't mean that i don't wanna hold
but just to give both us more time to continue

无奈
事实好像不如预期般

你会难过吗
你会伤心吗

还是
你继续滥用你的借口
一个让你有理由继续玩得借口

i need someone to distract myself
我不堪寂寞
don't blame me for doing this
我只想要忘记你

it happened too many times
so pls just stop it

不要再为自己做错的事情找借口了
好吗?

excuses are for the first forgiving
not for things to happen again and again

p/s: i know it's hurt,
but it's much more better than the way u treated me before this.
and i guess u wouldn't know that,
i am much more xam tong than you, now.

2011-05-25T12:57:00.002+08:00

studies
interns
relationship

such a mess right now

i know
it's gonna be hurt
no matter what's the last decision

it's just way too hard for me

2011-05-21T12:26:00.003+08:00

i love to play your hair
i love to press you on my bed
i love to hug you from your back
everytime i listen to certain songs, it reminds me about you

what else?
hello. can you creative a lil bit?
why are you saying all this to me, after you wrote this as a letter for her?
duh
innovation dah pigi mane ni?
don't you know i hate people having the same things with me?
i'm selfish kay.
i can share everything with a friend
but not with a stranger
and not to share my boy with them

UNDERSTAND??

p/s:
不要一直说我在玩你
我付出真心时
你不珍惜
我选择离开了
你才要挽留
你才知道你要的是什么
为何你就不在我还想继续的时候
就给我一个肯定
而不是在一个，不是，是两个ex之后
才来找回我
那请问
这五个月里
被你耍的是我还是她们？

一輩子都只跟老婆做的50件事情

2011-05-21T11:39:00.002+08:00

一輩子都只跟老婆做的50件事情

1、買一套大房子給你，為我們的寶寶留一間嬰兒房。

2、讓你躺在我的腿上靜靜的看書，然後撫摩你的頭髮。

3、當你說自己很累不想做飯時，把你抱上床蓋上被子，然後親自給你做我最拿手的方便麵！

4、當你不吃飯的時候哄著你吃，再不行就餵你吃。

5、帶你去趟馬爾代夫，感受靜止時空。

6、再和你去趟非洲，讓你感覺自己非常的白。

7、把我的牙刷偷偷的和你換一下。

8、每個特殊的日子都要在你心裡留下一段特殊的回憶。

9、在洗澡的時候幫你搓背，洗完澡後幫你揉揉腳。

10、在你累的時候幫你揉揉肩。

11、沒有理由的親親你。

12、你寫的東西我一定做第一個讀者，並且不管你寫的怎樣都鼓勵你。

13、每年秋天都和你去登山。

14、經常抱著你，背著你，哪怕是在大庭廣眾之下。

15、每天醒來先看看你熟睡的樣子，輕輕吻你一下。

16、經常逗的你想哭又想笑。

17、陪你逛街，和你一起做飯。

18、在街上走的時候不讓你離開自己1米，永遠不讓你走靠馬路的那邊。

19、過馬路是都要牽著你的手。

20、在你特殊時期的時候給你端上我做的紅糖荷包蛋，看你把淚水蹭到我胸前。

21、在生活中讓著你，你錯了也是我的錯，吵架後肯定我先道歉，但是在是非方面卻要堅持原則。

22、聽你叫我傻瓜等一切你想叫我的名字。

23、晚上故意叫醒你，聽你庸懶的聲音。

24、在你無助時能在你身邊幫你。

25、幫你梳頭時不弄疼你。

26、在你專心看書時不打攪你。

27、和你搶吃的，把最有營養最好吃的留給你。

28、聽你從海邊打來的電話，聽你踩浪花時的叫聲。

29、幫你買菜時順便買束花給你。

30、在你生病時，守在你身邊，給你塞塞被角，摸摸你的額頭，把你擁入懷中。

31、錢包裡總是有你的照片，或者是全家福。

32、和你一起撫養孩子長大。

33、下班後只要看見家裡的燈滅了就一定自己開門，絕不吵醒你。

34、半夜故意把你的被子踢開讓你往我被窩裡鑽。

35、聽你的話不抽煙，少喝酒，多吃水果，定時吃飯。

37、打雷的時候對你說“來我抱著你睡”因為我知道你害怕打雷。

38、每天和你一起喝牛奶。

39、我們吵架後，會在客廳睡，讓你好好想一想，再等你來給我蓋被子。

40、留一點點的鬍子，在親你的時候偷偷的紮你的臉。

41、在你70歲的時候陪你去看夕陽。

42、和你一起看鬼片，安慰你說“別怕，有我呢！”

43、當你趴在陽台的欄杆上時，從你身後攬住你。

44、不許你說謝謝，對不起之類的話，那樣會很見外。

45、下雨的時候出現在你面前。

46、沒錢的時候會肉麻的說“老婆，給點零用錢吧！”

47、當你和孩子在公園裡嬉戲時，坐在一邊享受著。

48、認真聽你說的每句話。

49、如果我有什麼意外，希望你能找個比我對你更好的人。

50、每天都感激上天讓我們相遇，相知，相愛.....

*he said he love to play her hair. he said he love to hug her from her back. thats why, i hate number 2 and number 43.

2011-05-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

finally
you wanna admit everything

can't resist temptation
just this three simple word
u know what
u made all this happened by your own

dont blame it on me anymore
dont blame me cause i'm the one asked for a break up at first

you know how cruel are you that time
i begged for going up to see you for once during my birthday
but you was with her
and you scolded me

do you ever think of me?
even for one second?
NO !!

cause she's YOUR GIRL!
and you really good in acting
do you know that?
the best actor of the year
for cheating right in front of me

so please stop calling or texting me
tell me how much you miss me
how much you want me

i recall back those days
how stupid i am
being cheated by your tears

you betrayed at first
just stop blaming others
the only one you can blame
blame her
and blame yourself

you caused everything to happen
you choose the ending by your own

THANKS WOR
such a nice birthday gift + surprise to me
seems like i got not fate with this day
i spent 3 bithdays during my uni life
but non of them are good memories to me

to the girl who like to kiss people's boyfie
do you think you doing the right thing?
snatched away people's belonging?
do you know he don't love you at all?
do you know i'm the only one have his house key?
do you know that i'm beside him when both you are texting?
do you know he spent his days with me all the time
when you two were in a relationship?

well
i dont know lar
maybe you can try to ask him?
cause he's the one told me he got no gf
(he said if not serious relationship wont tell me)
cause he's the one hide everything
cause he dont even wanna admit that you're his girl

oh yea
i saw the cards u made for him
erhem
quite normal only worr
and seriously i dont know a girl's handwriting can be so messy
and arh
less of creativity loh

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

do you know i made lots of cards for him before?
do you know the bed u slept that day was my bed?
do you know the room is full of my memories with him?
do you know i'm already in that house since he moved there?
have you ever tried to wake up by the breakfast he cooked?

sorry no offend
to the girl
you're only a victim in this case

to him
you'll never realize until you lost something
which you really want
and now the only thing you can do is blame yourself for being so stupid
letting go the love one

t.c.

2011-05-20T14:53:00.002+08:00

nothing goes well today
argued with the ex
from 12 until 4 in the morning
while i'm having my last final paper on 9am

okay fine
i spent 3 hours for doing revision
6 choose 4
and i only can answered the first question

NEVAMINE !!
came back to room
packed everything since i'm going to stay at my aunt's house during the 4 months intern
spent few hours on packing 3 toyogo boxes
called to mom
tried to talk nicely
but end up with fight

why
everything goes to the wrong direction

and why
m i still staying here while my exam was over

she's calling me right now
but i just left my phone ringing there

just leave me alone
kay?

The.Hardest.Thing

2011-05-20T06:54:00.003+08:00

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong

I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep

I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
HE's been good to me
And HE deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind

Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know cause
There can be no happy ending

non-stop playing this song
i'm cruel
i know i've been acted like a cold-blooded animal

forced myself do not ever act like homosapien
cause i know i always 心软 in the end

he cried
he begged
he lost control
he shouted

still
i choose to end it in this way

u should know that
i hate people shouting at me
threatening me
making promises which can never be fulfill

but
why are you still acting like this?

给了空头承诺
还要我再次相信你?

只是三分钟热度而已
过多一阵子
你就会把我忘了
就会另结新欢
just like what u had done before

happened once
shame on me
happened twice
shame on you

it's already not the first time
did u notice that?

and
you just throw me one simple explanation for everything u done
:
i know i chose the wrong decision and i'm regret now

hello
happened twice dy leh uncle
u can't give me any reasonable explanantion
what else u expect me to do?

chose the wrong decision for twice?
regret for twice?

or
i'm the one being fooled twice?

像傻瓜般的等待
却等不到一个期待
现在你再次归来
一切却已为时太晚

good things never wait
everyone is looking for it
you'll regret if u never hold it tight

i had gave u clues
why u never noticed until u lost the love one?

你知道我最讨厌什么吗?
你咄咄逼人的时候
你略带威胁的语气的时候
你失去控制发脾气的时候
你说话狠毒的时候

说过要改
改到哪去了?

江山易改
本性难移

我忍得了一时
忍不了一世

也许有一天我会后悔
但
你是不是应该觉悟
为何你竟然可以做错两次决定
后悔两次
而在你享受的当儿
请不要告诉我
你脑海里闪过我的影子
因为
如果你想起我
你不会这样狠心对待我
你会当机立断
你会知道你想要的是什么
而不是
拖泥带水之后
才来找我
说你要的是我

你说你心痛
我说我比你难受过一百倍都还没出声

你说你难过
我说当我天天以泪洗面的时候
躺在你身边的却是另一个女生

别说你有多想我
别说你有多爱我
什么都别说
在做错了一切以后
所有的谎言
只会越来越多

你不必解释
你为什么说谎
你不能说我没有爱过
说我没等过
难过

我也真心真意的等过

i dont know what else i can say
the only thing i know

it's really my hardest decision

2011-05-20T03:32:00.003+08:00

we are not meant to be
sorry

2011-05-18T21:22:00.003+08:00

just paid 70+bucks for the streamyx thingy to my housemate

oh nooooo
for the first time
i felt that i'm so broke!!
seriously

after the last paper on friday morning
m going to off to another mode in few days time

*INTERNSHIP*

erhem
*correction
should be holiday mode for 4 months
HAHAHHAHAA

MF.MG

2011-05-15T01:25:00.001+08:00

很好啊
有个那么亲密的匿称

去你的
小妹妹一个
要做第三者
趁虚而入

收皮啦
回家喝多两瓶奶
才来跟我说

不过，倒是谢谢你
让我看清某人的真面目

原来
现在的小妹妹那么喜欢抢别人用过的
谢啦
回送给你
你喜欢dine in还是take away?

恨死你
她奶奶的MG

更让人憎恨的
是懦弱的男人

被谎言捆绑
被新欢迷惑

一失足成千古恨
要怨就怨你选错了路

你的所作所为
将会遭受天谴

do you guys believe in karma?
what goes around comes around

don't tell me you're sorry cause you not
baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught

why
you just can't admit that you're wrong at the first time
and you're only sorry when people don't wanna bother you anymore

there is something good there
and everyone is looking for it
you'll never know
until you missed everything

there is someone else there
once there is any wrong step taken
渔翁得利
you get what i mean?

这个世界就是酱残忍
不是你死，就是我活

MG right?
MY GIRL to you right?
while i'm just a nobody right?

dont worry.
i know i can be somebody to others
and make MG become MFG
mathefarkingirl.
:)

p/s: apologize for the rudeness in this post. she's the one switch on my rude mode. blame her :D

good night.

2011-05-11T23:56:00.001+08:00

this is so cute
:)

to my future boy.
remember this!!

this is what you should do,
if u receive my call/messages in the middle of the night.

instead of
throwing your tantrum to me !!

goodnight world ♥

2011-05-11T19:17:00.002+08:00

it's wednesday!!
connaught pasar malam
i miss you
:(

can someone bring me there?

2011-05-10T05:10:00.001+08:00

i'm just a Holy Fool oh baby he's so cruel
but i'm still in love with Judas baby
- by Lady Gaga

i'm just a simple girl oh baby he's so true
and i'm so in love with my baby
- by Robecca Lam

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2011-05-10T03:24:00.003+08:00

你看到这
会不会很想笑

baby
你，很累吧
因为你一直在我脑海里跑来跑去哦
:D

好累啊
9点要去考试了
却没读到什么
好想把时间fast forward到11点
可不可以快点啊

我要看fast 5
我要去唱歌
我要睡觉
我要星期天
我要
我要
我什么都要

加油
我的你
你的我
你
我
我们大家
一起加油
!!

2011-05-06T05:32:00.002+08:00

halo
aloha~
你好
konichiwa

现在是5.33分
是早上哦

不要怀疑
对
我还没有睡

为什么
还不是为了一个fyp

原谅我的疯狂
开始在自问自答了

痘痘啊
为甚么这个时候pok出来
等下怎样见人啊

现在整个状况
一个字
惨
另一个字
残

我有很努力
真的有很努力
你们大家看到的咯

最好是给我一个不错的成绩
不然
mr ong你的office最好给我小心点

这几天熬夜熬到不知天荒地暗
我等下交了fyp就要睡到海枯石烂！

2011-05-05T01:11:00.002+08:00

can someone gimme a helping hand?
i cough until i can't even recognize my voice
it's not consider as sexy dy
I AM TOTALLY A MAN NOW!
比男人还要男人的声音
谁敢来挑战我

somebody call 911
shawty cough til her lung almost puke dy
whoaaaa

2011-05-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

miss me?

waaaaa
MAA came out with new pattern nowadays.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA

2011-05-03T21:41:00.011+08:00

today,
很意外的
本小姐 decided to go to class (fyi i had never been to campus for... weeks? LOL)
then only i realize i never copy down the timetable
i don't even know where is the venue for today's class !!
while today is already the last class for this sem.

IT'S THE FINAL WEEK LO PENG YOU!
还不用紧.
texted jess, asked her where is the venue, acted like i'm so hardworking,
and i enter the class.

eh? why everyone is looking at me? ohhh, probably coz i seldom come to this class.

nevermind, i found my place to sit,
then

EI? WHO IS THIS LECTURER?? OMG ENTERED THE WRONG CLASS?!
sheeeeeeet.

how blur am i.
my class is in 3003, not 3002!

这还真的不用紧.
最够力的是
once i enter the class,
the lecturer said
OH, THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER,
OKAY THERE IS ONLY 2 SLIDES.
DISMISS.
GOOD LUCK IN YOUR FINAL.

老师
我的屁股都还没有坐烧啊
20mins done!!
ini lecturer jin eh manyak pandai makan ular

*********************************************************

movie after class
THOR !!
omg it's natalie portman again!

after
BLACK SWAN
&
LOVE AND OTHER DRUGS
& now
THOR !!
it's her 3rd movie for me.

跟了三个不同角色、关系的人看了这三部不一样主题的电影
还真的很不一样的感觉

你的睫毛很长，可是很不翘
另加一句
你的嘴巴很大，好像要把我吃掉

现在要跟我玩押韵?
!@#$%^&*&^%$!
嘴巴还真的是吐不出一句好话的hor。

解脫

2011-05-02T15:52:00.000+08:00

想若结局一样又何苦再想

想若让人成长我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔我总会实现一个梦

i'm standing in the middle of the crossroad
left or right
or should i remain my position

从来
我都不是犹豫不决的人

这一次
我是不是也该果断点
给自己一个机会

就像当初的你
决定跟miss MG
还有miss J

我不怪你
反而该感谢她们的出现

让我知道
我没有想象中那么重要
只是我高估了自己

哭过了
释怀了
解脱了
微笑了

这一次
我也该向那个新方向走去了
=]

2011-05-01T23:03:00.003+08:00

it's the 5th post for today
and i couldnt find any reason for why am i so hardworking in this
there are so many things for me to share it all here
while my fyp is still waiting for me
sorry my dear final year project

i read through my older posts just now
all the memories recalled back in a sudden
i wonder why am i so 感性 during those days
HAHAHAHAHAHA

there is one girl came to me today
told me she reads my blog
and asked for a talk

to be honest
i will straight away ignore if she was a guy
girl, how lucky you are
just because you're a girl
LOL

i don't know if my face looks like a consultant
but she shared her problems to me,
asked me what else she can do.

she really really need someone to talk to,
i guess so.

she told me：

曾经我和你一样以为等待可以有个美好的结局
结果等到了
却不如预期般的开心

你开心吗?
she asked me.

也许开心
也许不
但这一秒
我过得很好

有人告诉过我
哭过以后
要懂得释怀

哭得多了
也是时候释怀了

学会不再那么执着
别再为自己还是为他找借口
那些只是谎言

the worst lies are those we told ourselves.

不知道是巧合
还是缘分
还是天意

我遇见了一个男孩
就像一年前的他的一个男孩

所有的故事情节
好像历史重演般

是要我想起一年前的一切
还是要我忘记所有的一切
重新来过?

eighteen.again.

2011-05-01T16:50:00.001+08:00

it's so sarcastic
when i saw my 16-year-old cousin posted her birthday cake pics in the facebook
while i don't even remember when was the last time i had my birthday cake
or the feel of making wishes in front of cake with candles

3 years i think?
LOL

and that's why i keep telling everyone i'm only 18
I AM ONLY 18!!!
pok pok cui, sap pat soi~

the birthday cake was that DOMO thingy
well, seriously idk why the whole gang addicted to this brown color things, cute meh?

as i know,
the whole family are addicted to this DOMO.
the elder sis had this DOMO-shaped birthday cake for her last birthday,
too.

"MY BOY buy for me geh"
she wrote that.
smiley face behind there.

几幸福酱.
下次我家的你要识做啦！